berglekutt said:
I don't know if I consider myself a "lolicon" because to me that's the person enjoying the lolis. In my fantasies that's what I'm calling the guy whose lust has overcome him and who is now raping me. I dunno I guess there's something broken in my head where I don't really take it seriously when adults are sexually attracted to each other. I've seen the way pedos lust after girls and it's hard to put that genie back in the bottle, so to speak. A lolicon will chance a decade in jail for a panty sniff. Next to that it feels like "regular" guys just don't have the kind of drive and motivation I'm after. I guess it's no wonder I also like yandere stuff, rape stuff, and anything where the amount of desire "I" am being subject to is vastly greater than the norm for adult relationships. I think a great example is the scene from the hentai Euphoria where the girl is literally ripping her own hair out from drug-fueled lust.

That and fat men. Like seriously there aren't nearly enough hentai with fat and/or hairy men outside of loli-centered ones.

Solarwagon said:


I'm not particularly into loli/shota stuff but this is a good explanation. In my opinion, it's a mixture of wanting to relive a time of innocence while also wanting to fulfill more adult fantasies. It may or may not be a reclaiming a traumatic experience (I can't deny it happened but maybe it could've happened like THIS) and may or may not be an overcompensation for loneliness in childhood/adolescence (I wasn't attractive to my peers, but maybe an older person would've found me uniquely sexy). There's a certain power fantasy in regressing, to becoming something politically/physically vulnerable to taint yet socially/morally idolized as sacred. A lot of sexuality is based on the contradictory aspects of social constructs. It's like how jokes are often rooted in the discomfort that comes from realizing something irrational about reality. Likewise, kinks take the least comfortable parts of human experiences and synthesize them in a way that lets the discomfort become arousal.

oshirisaikou said:
Thanks for answering.
That's insteresting since i never thought it could be interpreted this way until recently.
So if you see those walls of text with unhinged fantasies some lolicons(BA majorly) write do you imagine yourself as the loli they are referencing/lusting for?

berglekutt said:


Pretty much. I used to fight it but I'm getting a little older now and I'm just getting more resigned to it. I can cum with "normal" fantasies and sex, but only when I'm imagining myself as a cute loli do I REALLY REALLY cum. I'm kind of tired of pretending I'm not this way so, here I am. Like I'm just so cute they can't help themselves. I especially like stuff like Tiny Evil, where a man actively chooses the loli he barely knows (of course me) over his loving wife. And it's weird because you'd think that someone like me must be affection-starved in real life, and I kind of am, but I know it's just because I'm too afraid of myself to actually go find pervs IRL. It just feels like attention and affection are a bottomless well for me, and even if I were outright Aphrodite that I couldn't get enough adoration from people to satisfy my desire. The way lolicons lust after lolis is the only water that has any chance of quenching my thirst, if that makes any sense.

Also after typing this I realized that I can't imagine Aphrodite not being a loli anymore. I'm so broken. :D

EDIT: Oh and thank you for asking...I'm really glad to have a place to talk about this stuff and people to talk about it with. :)

nayas said:
Interesting, I remember seeing old image of some girl's pussy with tattoo of a naked loli around it. No idea if it's real but now I can understand why you would want to be fucked like a loli.

berglekutt said:
OMG thank you, like I was so completely blinded by the femdom aspect of it. For the longest time, I was put off by bratty and seductive girls and thought girls were supposed to be like, elegant and classy (thanks mom). Femdom always confused me. Then suddenly loli femdom started appearing and it clicked so hard with me, like I have actual power! People actually want me, and will go to great lengths to get my consent...like the realization did wonders for my self esteem and is probably one of the reasons I got the courage to start posting online.